All my life I have felt like the odd ball or just plain weird. I felt like I thought, talked, and even acted differently. I have always had a passion for music and writing which sometimes seemed to consume my thoughts and still does. You know what I've learned though....It's okay to be "ME". For a long time I didn't really know who that was. I wanted acceptance from my peers....or from a relationship so bad that I would bend over backwards to change myself for the current "situation" so to speak. I then would put on this front that everything was okay even though I was screaming inside, "LOVE ME FOR ME!!! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE ME FOR ME?!?" The days would pass as the darkness would continue to engulf the very essence of who I was until I would become the puppet that the person I was with wanted me to be. I knew how to play the part. Smile and pretend to be happy. Eventually the cracks in the relationship would get so big that I would just be a ghost of the person I once was. Let me tell you that is no way to live. I learned the hard way that you can change yourself to please someone else, but in the end you only make yourself miserable. It has taken A LOT of quiet time with Jesus to change the image of myself. It's like I've always known who Jesus was, but until I learned who he said I was nothing was going to change. Through his word I began to discover that he says, "I am fearfully and wonderfully made..." Psalm 139:14. That means I wasn't thrown together. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." Psalm 139:13. I am one of a kind. "...I have loved you with an everlasting love..." Jeremiah 31:3. I AM LOVED and NOTHING could make my Jesus stop loving me. I could go on and on, but to sum it up and fast forward to the present.... I finally LOVE ME FOR ME. I am who I am take it or leave it. Please learn from my mistakes....don't want a relationship so bad that you are willing to sacrifice YOU. I hope this helps someone.
I love you all!
Michelle Jetton
(Please enjoy the video. Colton Dixon's "Who I Am" )
I love you all!
Michelle Jetton
(Please enjoy the video. Colton Dixon's "Who I Am" )